Our Lewy Body Dementia and Parkinson disease journey...changes in life.

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Today I have had a hard time...the manual work is mostly over at the old house...but reality is sinking in...my old life is over...our projects of building fences, patios, laying bricks, building firepits, laying floors, removing walls etc is over....my life of small crazy projects is over...I am a sentimental old fashioned girl and now having a hard time letting go...yes I have a more modern home, a yard that is all landscaped, a carport and deck that is of the finest materials...but it is all different. Hubby wants to just go home....I say this is home. We are old....change is hard. Not saying we won't get used to it...just saying so different. No place for most of my projects so took them to the thrift store. Now I will have to find the new me....and where do I fit into this change. New friends are being made here...but am I supposed to change to a new role? So many changes hubby not knowing that this is life now...hubby not there to understand my feelings or to talk to. Yes he is setting there but he looks at me and says "I can not follow what you are saying"....I cry. We are getting ready for the next step in life...am I ready? My heart says NO. But life has to go on. I will put my big girl pants on and make this work. Even if I have to cry all the way through it. Nite all and thanks for listening. God bless.

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