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 For Christmas we decided to have grandpa give each grandchild that was home a memory hug...since he has dementia and parkinson we don't know how long his memory will be with us.  So each grandchild was given a sweatshirt and we painted Brents hands and arms and he gave each child a hug, which put his hand print on the back of each shirt.     

  Hubby 5 years ago ...strong and healthy...today I asked him how old he was, and he is so proud looks at me and says "I am 78 and will be soon 79: .......nope...he is 73 and will soon be 74 on the 19th of this month....but at least he is happy today no matter what his age is ...counting our blessings...  

  I know this sounds morbid, but I have been doing a lot of research on the Biblical views of cremation vs traditional burial....I have watched tons of videos, listened to lots of ministers.... walked through Biblical studies and I can see good points on both sides....in today's world you are pushed to do cremation as its cheaper, faster, better for environment due to not having to have so many Cemetaries....hubby and I have talked a lot about it...and we both come down to traditional burial for us....we are not against what you choose or how you go about it...but for us....we are just two ole fogies who love the traditional way to do it...simple easy no dramas, dinners, festivities...just family....just getting our priorities in place....

  It's so hard. I know that by now I should be able to handle the emotions of this disease. But it's so hard. We were sound asleep, and I hear these yelling crazy words...then he begins crying saying "please stop". I lay and ask the Lord please help him. It gets quiet and I think it's over then he gets up and walks through the house. I lay and pray, and he goes back to bed. He is asleep now and I am stressed. I am a girl who believes in prayer. But still hubby suffers. I know God can heal but still hubby suffers. I walk the floor asking the Lord already to help us...I know some of you have gone through worse and I am trying not to complain. It's just that it's so hard to watch your hubby change...daily. And you have to just sit and watch. Yes, he lost his temper today. He just yelled at me was all. And yes he was sorry after. I am a hard person to live with I know. But after 51 years you would think we got this. All is quiet here now so I guess I...

  Cleaning out a couple sheds and found Brents three wheel bike....When Brent's dad was in his late 80's early 90's he had a three wheel bicycle that he would ride from Weippe to Pierce and back which is 11 miles up hill...he would go to the pharmacy there and get his meds....he wouldn't let anyone take him he would say "I have all day to do this" and off he would go...many of you remember seeing him and he even made the newspapers.....our son Jon came up with a three wheel bike for his dad for Father's day. in 2018.....he saw a vintage one online and bought it.... hubby was so excited ...reminded him of his dad......yes, I tried it but I forgot the hand brakes and ran into the neighbor's fence......we just love this, and it was so thoughtful of Jon and Sue to get this for their dad...it has brought some good memories back for Brent....no hubby didn't ride it...was hard just getting him on it....

  It's so hard. I know that by now I should be able to handle the emotions of this disease. But it's so hard. We were sound asleep, and I hear these yelling crazy words...then he begins crying saying "please stop". I lay and ask the Lord please help him. It gets quiet and I think it's over then he gets up and walks through the house. I lay and pray, and he goes back to bed. He is asleep now and I am stressed. I am a girl who believes in prayer. But still hubby suffers. I know God can heal but still hubby suffers. I walk the floor asking the Lord already to help us...I know some of you have gone through worse and I am trying not to complain. It's just that it's so hard to watch your hubby change...daily. And you have to just sit and watch. Yes, he lost his temper today. He just yelled at me was all. And yes he was sorry after. I am a hard person to live with I know. But after 51 years you would think we got this. All is quiet here now so I guess I...

  Many of you have been asking ...what were the answers....I will be honest with you, but if you have negative things to say please just move on and don't leave them. Our family has been guessing on a couple problems we thought was wrong with hubby.....but of course it was guesses. We met with the best neurologist ever....very sweet, very knowledgeable, treated us with respect and was so good to hubby.  We were told hubby has Lewy body dementia and Parkinson disease.......he has both.....to medicate one makes the other one go crazy. Plus hubby's surgery for his hernia caused them both to decline. We were given 3 options.....one surgery on his brain to try to slow the process, 2 injections in his eyes and 3 certain types of meds. Now don't go crazy, but we opted out of all of the above.....his prognosis is already declining......so why do something to make it worse when trying to make it better so we are waiting for 4 months when we will return to the neurologist and decide...