Our LBD and Parkinson disease journey....counting blessings

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Today I had fun out running around getting some items that I needed for ...an outing with grandkids....I almost forgot to do it and that is get pics of Santa with the grandkids...so I was running around getting clothes for them...I feel I was so blessed with my purchases and prices...felt bad that I was out and hubby was just setting at home. He doesn't even want the TV on he just sets and does nothing. I try to hurry back as fast as I can, and he is always just waiting for me. But my conscience always hurts leaving him.... then I was so excited to show him my buys and he isn't at all interested. But I set and explain each piece as if he wants to know everything. I sure do miss hm and he is setting right there. It totally makes my heart hurt. Yes, I am counting my blessings that he is here for Christmas.....but he isn't here....no one understands these diseases but someone who is facing them. All I can do is trust and pray the lump in my heart goes away....God bless and thank you for listening...(oh I got him a new shirt)

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