Our Lewy Body Dementia and Parkinson disease journey...Bed

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 Something no one ever talks about and that is the bed. Hubby has his own room for quite a while now. And I can not sleep. Been together for 51 years....even had our kids when young and some grandkids share our bed. Which most of you did. But now I have this big old queen size bed and I can not get comfortable no matter what I do. I know some of you have lost your loved one and they are enjoying Heaven. My hubby is in the next room .Every night I toss and turn...can not find a good spot...I add pillows I throw pillows...I sleep with my head at the top of the bed...I sleep at the foot of the bed I have even tried to sleep cross wise across the bed. Most of the time I just prop myself up and sleep setting up. Not sure why the bed is no longer comfortable...I should be happy with all the room. And it's not like I miss hubby....it's just I can not find a good spot on the bed. So most nights no sleep. Now this morning at 3"20 hubby was again having some scary dreams...yelling and crying so I finally went in and tapped him on the foot as I called his name and He woke up and moved around. It passed and he went back to sleep. I am not sure how those of you who have lost your special loved one find peace at night. But this girl hasn't found it yet. Maybe I just need a new bed. The Bible says "he gives his beloved sleep". well...maybe I need to do some soul searching. have a good night all.

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